i'm crying like crazy right now. i hate myself sooo much it feels like I never felt this way before to anyone who has wronged me. not even you. and I need you to be here. I really really do. I need to see you. I have to hear your voice. I need that silent stare you give me. I just need you right now Myke. I'm falling into pieces again and this isn't about him but pretty much something you've always known about me. Something I told you some 5 to 7 years ago. I hate to tell you this but these are the same issues you used to comfort me before.
>As promised to Michael (yes, my ex) before he went back to Manila after the break that if I ever get to recover this entry it would get published. And as I warned him, I didn't finish this entry because while I was doing this I was crying and since writing/blogging to me is a relief I stopped when the tears stopped falling. :D
P.S. I wish we don't have to be very honest or vocal with each other. It's crazy how there is zero amount of awkwardness between us. I'm not saying that it's required because the society of exES dictates so but you know, okayy.. I can hear you say "So what Kaye? What is this fuss about? HAHA! " It's just that there should be. But I think it's full of drama and we both are allergic to that. So, yes, we are okay. :D And I'm happy with it.
